Andai

Andai aku dilahirkan sebagai burung,
Alangkah indahnya dunia ini,
Tak perlu aku berhadapan lagi,
Dengan ingatan yang menyakitkan hati.

Andai aku dilahirkan sebagai semut,
Alangkah bahagianya,
Tak perlu lagi aku mendertia,
Mengingati segala duka.

Andai aku dilahirkan sebagai haiwan,
Mesti hidupkau takkan keruan,
Walau hidup tanpa tujuan,
Namun di akhirat tiada pembalasan.

Andai aku tidak pernah dilahirkan,
Alangkah indah bumi tuhan,
Tanpa adanya seorang insan,
Yang hidupnya amat membosankan,
Aku dah bosan,
Hanya satu pintaku tuhan,
Ambillah apa yang telah engkau berikan.

Siapa Aku

Aku bagai buih nan kecil,
Hanyut di lautan yang luas,
Sekadar menanti hingga ke pantai,
Ditenggelami ombak yang mengganas.

Aku bagai sekeping daun,
Nun ditengah hutan yang besar,
Sekadar menjadi laluan denai,
Makhluk yang hidup didalamnnya.

Aku bagai kerikil di tepi jalan,
Walau beribu yang memijak,
Tak pernah mereka mendengar,
Rintihan dari hati kecilku.

Aku bagai selembar benang,
Yang tugasnya mengeratkan,
Namun tak ada yang memberi perhatian,
Hidupku hanya seorang.

Aku hanya makhluk yang kecil,
Dicipta tuhan atas sebab tertentu,
Namun tak ada yang pernah cuba tahu,
Siapa diriku, siapa aku.

Sinar Ramadhan

Ramadhan Kembali Menjelma

Bisikan Buat Hati & Jiwa

Wahai hati tenanglah,
Wahai jiwa tenanglah
Ini semua dugaan allah,
Jangan sesekali engkau mengalah

Wahai hati zikirlah
Wahai jiwa zuhudlah,
Engkau mesti senantiasa tabah,
Jangan engkau mudah mengalah
Biar hatimu ditusuk sembilu,
Biar jiwamu didesak pilu,
Ingatlah pada yang Satu,
Yang senantiasa memerhatimu.

Biarkan duka dan nestapa,
Berlalu pergi bersama yang tercinta
Hidup kita di dunia,
Biarpun pahit mesti diteruskan jua
Jangan engkau bermuram durja,
Kehilangan meraka yang kau cinta
Biar mereka aman di sana,
Di sisi tuhan maha pencipta

Wahai hati tabahlah
Wahai jiwa pasrahlah
Pada ketentuan yang maha pemurah
Pada timpaan setiap musibah

Wahai hati yakinlah
Wahai jiwa tawakkallah
Hidup kita di bumi allah
Sampai masanya...berakhir sudah
Wahai hati dan jiwa...
Moga engkau redha senantiasa...

30/11/03

Renungan Buat Semua

Pernahkah anda terfikir betapa istimewanya orang yang kurang siuman? Kita selalu mengejek, mengeji malah menghina orang orang sebegini tapi pernahkah kita sedar betapa hebatnya mereka? Malah mereka lebih hebat dari kita insan yang normal.

Pernahkah anda melihat orang kurang siuman makan makanan yang dipungut dari tong sampah?Terkadang saya memerhatikan tabiat orang kurang siuman. Dengan sisa makanan yang dipungut dari tong sampah ditangan dan air yang diminum dari tandas, mereka mengharungi kehidupan yang tak mampu kita sebagai insan yang sihat lakukan. Sekiranya kita memakan makanan yang disimpan selama dua hari nescaya kita akan kesakitan.namun mereka yang mencari rezeki dari sisa buangan tak pernah mengadu kesakitan. Mereka mampu berjalan, dengan hanya berkaki ayam, berpuluh kilometer sehari tanpa mengenal lelah. Mampukah kita insan yang normal melakukan semua ini? Biarpun Tuhan mengambil kewarasan dari mereka tetapi Tuhan bekalkan mereka dengan kehebatan yang lebih dari insan yang normal.

Kita menghabiskan berpuluh malah beratus ringgit untuk membeli pakaian, kasut dan sebagainya atas tujuan keselesaan dan kesihatan namun mereka yang kurang siuman tak perlu menghabiskan sesen pun untuk kesemua ini. Walau sering kehujanan, berembun dan tidur berbantalkan tangan, mereka tak pernah mengadu. Hidup mereka tak pernah dibayangi kerisauan. Kita yang tidur didalam rumah yang terlindung, dengan bertilamkan tilam yang lembut tetap menghadapi kesakitan dan kerisauan. Adakah kita terlalu lemah? Apakah bezanya antara insan yang kurang siuman dengan insan yang normal? Layakkah kita mengetawakan mereka yang begitu hebat? Fikirkanlah. Betapa daifnya kita, betapa hebat dan beruntungnya mereka. Kita yang normal ini pasti akan dihisab di Padang Mashar sedangkan mereka telah dijaminkan syurga. Layakkah kita mengetawakan mereka yang telah dijaminkan syurga sedangkan kita masih belum tentu dimana tempat kita?

Renungilah. Setiap yang terjadi ada hikmahnya. Setiap yang berlaku ada pengajaran disebaliknya. Hentikan dengan ejekan atau hinaan terhadap insan yang begitu istimewa ini. Mereka dijadikan sebegitu agar kita dapat memahami bahawa Tuhan tak pernah berlaku kejam terhadap hambanya. Mereka juga manusia. Bukan haiwan, bukan makhluk asing yang turun entah dari mana. Kita lebih sanggup memelihara binatang dan memberinya makanan yang mahal-mahal. Salahkah kiranya kita membantu golongan yang hebat ini? Layakkah kita untuk menentukan siapa insan pilihan dan siapa insan buangan? Kita bukan Tuhan dan takkan dapat menjangkau pekerjaanNya. Setiap insan, siuman ataupun kurang siuman berhak hidup di muka bumi ini. Mereka sepertimana kita mempunyai kelebihan tersendiri. Mereka mempunyai tujuan dan peranan tertentu dalam kehidupan. Kenalilah mereka. Dekatilah mereka, fahami dan bantulah mereka. Mereka ini insan yang istimewa. Hentikan dan buangkan sikap ego kita, kerana sesungguhnya merekalah insan yang lebih beruntung, dunia dan akhirat.

Salam renungan buat semua.
SATIRA

Salju Semalam

Semalam,
Sejuk membeku diri ini,
Tenggelam daku dalam memori,
Yang sekian lama menghuni,
Sekian lama menyiksa diri ini.

Salju semalam,
Yang turun tanpa henti,
Seolah olah tak mengasihani,
Diri malang yang terdampar ini,
Terdampar jauh di daerah sepi,

Biarkan salju itu,
Menjadi saksi bisu,
Jiwaku yang kini kelabu,
Luka parah dihiris sembilu,

Biarkan salju semalam,
Menjadi saksi yang diam,
Pada rindu dan dendam,
Pada cinta yang telah terpadam

Biarkan salju yang membeku,
Mengundang memori dukaku,
Kerana hanya duka yang bertamu,
Menemani luka dihatiku

Biarkan salju yang putih,
Terus menyiksa jiwa yang merintih,
Meratap pilu pada sang kekasih,
Agar jangan terus menyisih,

Salju semalam,
Biarpun betapa dikau membeku,
Beku lagi didalam hatiku,
Yang sekian lama parah merindu.

Seredup Janji Mu

Semalam,
Tatkala kita memadu janji,
Kau berbisik padaku,
Bahawa kasihmu teramat suci,
Rupanya hempedu bersalut madu,

Semalam,
Tika kita dilamun bahagia,
Seolah dunia dicipta untuk kita,
Mendung kelabu muncul tiba tiba,
Menghancurkan impian yang dibina,

Semalam,
Tika bahagia menemani kita,
Terlupa kita pada bencana,
Yang bakal menimpa,
Pabila janji dan kata didusta.

Hari ini,
Aku berdiri diatas puing puing janji
Yang penah kita meterai,
Yang tinggal kini hanya mimpi,
Yang takkan mungkin menjadi realiti

Hari ini,
Memori luka bertamu lagi,
Seolah olah menuntut janji,
Agar mimpi menjadi realiti,
Tercapai hasrat dilubuk hati.

Hari ini,
Seredup mentari yang menyinari,
Tika memori datang bertamu,
Tak ingin kupercaya lagi,
Pada janji seredup janjimu.

As I See It

A Modern Life Or A Modern Lie?

As I stare into the darkness of the night, my mind wanders towards the problems that we are facing today. As bleak as it seems, to me, we still have a chance to undo what we have done to ourselves. Youth of today seems to lose their faith in their own culture. Most of them tend to follow the western culture without knowing what it means. Let me tell you a story. As I consider myself out of the main stream people, I like to take the pains of traveling to my college everyday, even though it meant that I had to wake up at 5 am just to catch the bus going off to Penang. What I enjoy most is the scenery in the ferry that I took every morning. Now ,one day, I saw a group of male teenagers with earrings on their pierced ears. Not too far from them I saw an European male, also with pierced ears but handsomely dressed , watching with interest. The European joined them, and at first they seemed proud, as if the man had somehow endorsed their way of life as modern teenagers. Later I heard shouts of unspeakable curses coming out of the teenagers mouth. Apparently the European was a homosexual and he had asked them to be his girlfriends. They were on the verge of fighting when I interrupted, and truth was then revealed to me. The European, seeing their pierced ears had thought that they too were homosexuals. He then proceeded to tell me ( being the interpreter ) that the pierced ears in western countries are a symbol of homosexuality. Therefore he mistook our male teenagers as homosexuals. I managed to explain to the teenagers the truth and luckily there was no blood shed that day. As I sat down, I laughed as loud as I could deep inside ( try laughing out loud in front of those angry mob!). There they were, teenagers of our country, leaders of tomorrow, and yet, they just do things without even knowing the meaning of what they’re trying to express. But as I think about it, there’s nothing to laugh about. Instead, we have much to fear. Our teenagers are the pillars of tomorrow and if that pillar is not as strong as it should be, then, I fear that one day, we shall see the ruin of our beloved country. And that , believe me, is nothing to laugh about.

Medias often play an active role in shaping today’s generation. All day long we can see commercials displaying the dangers of drunk driving, AIDS and many more. But as I was watching the commercials (or should I say be forced to watch the commercials) I was dumbfounded. The Youth Prevention commercials shows a group of pretty girls unnoticed by a group of very presentable and handsome boys. They were definitely angered by the non-reaction of the boys. So what did they do?. They went to the stores, bought some provocative looking dresses, styled their hair like durians and then went down the same escalator, and now what happen?. The boys suddenly pays attention and simply can’t take off their eyes. Now tell me this, is dressing up provocatively ,styling your hair like durians and courting boys okay, as long as you don’t smoke?. Well to me, smoking does not harm you as much as babies in trash cans due to free sex and the western culture. What the hell was the advertiser thinking when they made those commercials?. This is not our way of life. Is this what we want ? Girls throwing away their veil of shame? Boys and girls mixing up and experiencing things that they should not ? Because as I see it, the commercial endorsed any way of life …as long as you don’t smoke.
Why is it that today’s youth abhorred what the older generation adored? Do they think that by veiling their hair, wearing kurungs and cheong sams , they will be considered as outdated? Truthfully, I think that girls who veiled themselves are much prettier and more presentable than those who dressed provocatively. Isn’t it odd that in this day and age, the information era, where we don’t have to leave our home to learn about the world, we still find that we are short in dressing materials?. As I see it the more modern we are the shorter the skirts. If this is the indicator of progress, then I would not like to think 50 years ahead for fear that I would be blinded by the sights of women showing off their assets to the male. Would there one day be a nude beach in Malaysia? It could ,if we just shut our eyes and mind. Never mind… as long as they’re not smoking, it’s okay.

I disagree if someone said that we are now independent. I think that the people who are living during the British occupation are more independent than us. Should our forefathers be able to see what we are doing to ourselves right now, they would have said “ Gee, we shouldn’t fought that hard before”. Sure we are free to govern our country, but is this the price that we have to pay? Our forefathers not only fought for the independence of our country, but also the independence for our culture. Physical independence is nothing without mental independence. Though we are free physically, mentally we are colonized by the western culture. I remembered a joke that I’d read once in Readers Digest. An Indian priest in America said,” When the white man missionaries came, they had the religion and we had the land. Then the missionaries said, “let us close our eyes and pray to God “.When we open our eyes, we had the religion and they had the land”.It was the same with us. Before this, we can brag and be proud of our culture, though deprived of technologies. Now we can brag about our cars, our tall buildings ,our modern facilities and our modern life, but sadly we cannot brag about our culture anymore. Why?, simply because we have none practicable anymore. When we close our eyes to embrace independence, we shut our mind, and when we opened our mind, we find that we gained our independence but lost our dignity and identity.

Malays are the dominant race in Malaysia, we were known for our fierce struggle for our independence. Names such as Hang Tuah, Dato’ Bahaman and Mat Kilau”s are famous for their bravery and sacrifice. They sacrificed themselves to protect their country, religion and race. But can we say the same about ourselves? As I see it, nowadays we are prepared to sacrifice anything to be just like the westerners. If I were a Quantum Physics genius, I would build a time machine and go back in time. I would seek out the brave ones and tell them “It’s not worth it to sacrifice yourself, they are just going to be much worse than they are right now. Although you were colonized, at least you were free in mind .The future generations would just waste your effort. They knew more about the trials and tribulations of the last man standing in Alamo than yours. So just relax, and take a rest, knowing that what you tried your hardest to fought will eventually happen in the next 50 years. ”Sure, I’ll be hated, perhaps threatened to be killed for saying this, but I just call it AS I SEE IT.
“To be unable to see with your eyes are worse enough but to be unable to see with your mind is the worst”

From the desktop of: AIM 3/03/03 10pm to 11 pm.

Ku Rindu Pada Mu

Senyumanmu...
Seindah sinar mentari
Aku tenggelam...
Dalam cahaya kebahagiaan..

Oh kasih oh sayang
Kurindu padamu..
Hanya engkau idamanku..
Kau ratu di hati
Keayuan...
Yang terpancar dari matamu...
Membuatkan ku
Rasa tenang tak terperi...

Oh kasih ...oh sayang...
Kurindu padamu..
Hanya engkau di hatiku.....
Kau ratu di hati....

*Akan ku buktikan,
Seluruh rasa cinta,
Pada dirimu sayang...
Akan ku serahkan...
Seluruh jiwa raga....
Padamu...kasihhhh....

Lagu ini...
Kutujukan untuk dirimu....
Sebagai tanda.....rasa cinta yang abadi
Oh kasih ...oh sayang...
Kurindu padamu..
Hanya engkau dikalbuku....
Kau ratu hatiku...

Warna Kehidupan

Hari-hari yg dilalui
Adalah warna-warni kehidupan
Yang melakarkan coretan diri
Yang melukis sejarah hati

Mengapa malam cepat berlalu
Ku harap agar pagi tak akan menjelma
Biar masa terhenti?
Tidak… biar masa diperlahankan

Ku ingin menikmati malam hening ini
Menghayati malam indah ini
Melayari malam syahdu ini
Agar jiwa ku tenang

Mana mungkin kedinginan pagi esok
Bisa melenyapkan kepincangan hati
Menutup sayu hati
Mengetepikan rasa hati

Pagi nan bening ini
Adalah sepalit lagi warna alam
Yang sedang menunggu masa
Untuk dipatrikan ke dasar lukisan hari

Petang yang suram ini
Lembayungnya sedang merudum
Ku gagahi merempuhnya
Sebagai jambatan ke seberang malam

Dan tibanya malam kasih
Terang bulan ditemani bintang
Biru langit bersama putih angkasa
Lengkaplah satu lagi lukisan kehidupan